i slept for 11 hours, and im still sleeeeepy. whatever happened to those days that i could sleep for 13-14 hours everyday?

hair cut!!
wala's!!
vcd marathon!!

danny says lasalle. cos nafa is very traditional.
cain says lasalle. cos lasalle is known for design courses.
my sister says up to me. cos its my life. and its my choice.
mom says nafa. cos its nearer to my place.

i think lasalle paid cain to advertise for them. cos he kept going on and on about how great lasalle is.

there's this lady at work who pampers me alot. shes very motherly. and she's always smiling to me and all.. and i heard from the rest of the people that that lady is actually quite a bitch. hrrm.

can anyone please explain to me the reason why there are so many freak accidents latey? first the nicoll highway thing. now the aye thing. what's next? no, dont want any newyork thing please. hope not so many deaths this time around.. but things arent looking too good..

anyone wanna watch prelude to love at victoria theatre? looks good....

SATURDAY NIGHT FEVER on saturday night!!!! sounds good? can't wait! =)

eeeeps. look at the time.......

i like mornings cos i'll feel loved.
my maid and my mom would prepare everything for me.. breakfast.. shoes.. (always wrong) open the gate for me... take the newspaper for me.. everything.

feeling damn screwed up now.

lasalle. nafa.
how how how?

prolly take leave on friday.
so that i can go to nafa in the morning ( BTW, WHERE IS IT?!! directions please people. ).. and haircut in the afternoon. will need to check with melvin kor kor. hope lina comes out with us again. i like her. i want melvin kor kor and her to get married SOON so that ive got a nice and pretty cousin in law. can go shopping with her.. can bitch with her.. everything.. shes damn nice. can even smoke with her lah!

nafa, lasalle. how how how.

i think this week is *ALL OLDER SISTERS MUST BE A BITCH* week.
my sister is so bloody paranoid i swear. now she wants me to go to nafa just cos the nicoll highway is closed. cos it will mean a problem going to school.. or so she thinks lah. wahlao. and she scolded me for going to a manicure. wasting money she says.

anywayyy. no mambo tonight cos im damn sleepy. soon lah. i must remember to sleep early on tuesday nights in future.

im overweight. serious. im so fat now i should marry a hippo.

and i just ate a slice of swensen's ice cream cake. the blackforest one. eww. as if im not fat enough. i think i wanna go to marie france soon.

actually im very happy with my hair now.
the color and the cut and all....... dont really feel like cutting it on friday. bahh.

thursday................. fridayyyyy........ cut hair cut hair!!!!! dinner!!!!! wala's!! sleepover (??) !!!!!!

so..... today i took over this new responsibility at work. scanning of documents.. using the biiiiig scanner thingy? it was my first day doing it.. and the scanner is about 1 year old. so far, the lady before me has been using it without any troubles at all. until she left yesterday to be a granny. so thus, it became my responsibility. (yes, daphne and responsibility. *gasp*) so..... after scanning like ONLY TEN different documents.... the whole scanner got jammed. and a repair man had to be called down to fix it. and the company had to pay like a hundred bucks...... i felt so bad.

anywayyyy. im a happy girl today. *nudges everyone* birt.... so cute. i like. haha. or rather, i liked.

im at work now.. its so bloody mundane i swear.

d y i n g . .

cant wait for friday. hair cut.. wala's.. sleepover!!! yes??

hope melvin kor kor wont cut some punk hairstyle for me.. PLEASE DONT. enough. no bangs too okay. no undercut and all that i dunno what.

shall go do more filing now. of paper.. not my nails. I WISH.

so i just cleared my STUDY table.. and found,

5 issues of cleo.
4 issues of instyle.
3 issues of herworld.
2 issues of fhm. (i swear i didnt buy them.)
1 issue of teen vouge.

and under the study/computer table.. i found fifteen shoe boxes. and many paper bags.

i dont like looking at old photos.

just woke up from a 5 hour nap.

i woke up this morning feeling really horrible.. head was spinning.. feeling cold and hot at the same time. but i went to work still cos i thought i was being paranoid. worst still.. went to work, puked thrice. it was like one of those drunk nights when i have nothing left to puke.. but i still want to force myself. so the white stuff came out. eww.

anyway couldnt take it so i came home around 10ish. and try working... while they're playing hotel california on the morning express. BY WILLAM HUNG. its so horrid i swear.
head still spinning.
body feels heated up.
agh. prolly gonna go see the doctor later.

now.... time to clear my table.

check this out.

www.bramasole.com

my brother is working part time for them in newyork.

anyway just got an email from him. it was a damn sweet mail la. aww. it has been 4 months since he left. hrrms. exactly. agh. whatever.

i seriously need to stop buying shoes. to date, from the start of this year.. i bought like seventeen pairs of shoes la. its super extreme. i'd rather sell them all away and get a pair of marc jacobs. errr, but then again maybe not.

you amaze me sometimes, no make that all the time.
its like.... how could anyone be so fucking shallow?

happy birthday evelyn!!!

i found sermon good today.. and jen came to church!!! woohoo. damn glad. had lunch just the four of us.. at thai express.. after which was ps for eve and i to do our manicure. lol. now ive got nice dark purple nails. its damn nice.. haha. i like. thinking of making it a weekly affair thing. owell. anyway.. evelyn and i bought matching yellow wedge heels!!! its super ditzy lah. but its damn cute. lol. and its freaking three inches.

prince and me with evelyn and beks.. alright la. not a very good movie..

work tomorrow. BAH.

so i got home at 10.10 pm today. i opened the gate and my dad was in the living room.. he was super shocked that i was home so early. and so before i went into my room.. i was like "hi mommy.".. "you're home so early? if only you're like this every week. dont need to worry for you." was what i got in return.. hrrms.

i FINALLY got my havaianas!! got them in white this time around. next up.. brown.. and the black one with polkadots!! oh yes and the white base with blue top. and i've FINALLY gotten my essential white tote bag. next up for tomorrow.. MAYBE the same one in black.

met eve and beks in town around 1ish? yupp. had fun talking and all.. really. and reflecting at some point of time.. caught 50firstdates with beks. its damn nice... its superrr sweeeeet. and i was crying at the part when adam sandler was crying. haha. how dumb. its a very feel good movie.

saw su an and i made her take a photo of my mooks handbag so that she could get me a similar one when she goes to bali!! yayyy! =)

was thinking about getting my marcjacob's shoe. but then again.. its fucking $299. and im only 17. i dont need such an expensive pair of shoe. YET.

last night i felt mambo-y.
today im feeling levis-y.

how cheap thrill.

just got home.. work was so bloody mundane today.. i arranged 9999 documents. in numerical order. how FUN. my ass.

came home.. played with the girls.. and went to meet eve in bukit timah.
took stupid photos on the bus and went to hollandveee. met mark and ian.. wala's again on a friday night. but eve left early.. bah.

shopping!!!! YAYYYY!! =))) in twelve hours.....

where is everyone when i need them?

whatever happened to those talks of being there?

it has been 4 months. 4 months since 22nd december.
the last time i had a complete family dinner.
and on the 23rd was lunch at noodlebar.
24th was timsum in clarkquay.
25th was the day he left.

today, my sis and i were looking for sth in the street directory.
tasha walked over and said.. "mommy, where is new york? can you show it to me?"

did i mention that i think isetan scotts is cursed or something.
today is the THIRD time since the start of this year i had my period there.
and as usual, i had to go down to coldstorage to get tampons.
lucky they had it in packs of 8s today. the last time i had my period there, i had to buy a pack of 32s cos they ran outta 8s. haha. i think i have to stop visiting cain at work.

tragic tragic. lets pray for the people okies?

took half day today. cos had a casting appointment at toni&guy.
went down to town.. met cain.. bitching session man. lol. had lunch with him, nora and this other guy.. and it was damn dumb la. the things that i said that were meant to be funny, only cain got it. and things that i did/said that werent meant to be funny, nora laughs as thou its the funniest thing she has heard so far.. for example, when i sneezed.. wahlaos! and then saw azhar. so hung around with him till wai came.. walked around a little.. and went down to boatquay to look for denise.

went to toni&guys to meet my cousin. i went all the way there just for them to ask me what size of clothes do i wear, and let them touch my hair. lol. cutting my hair next week. coloring my hair the week after. and the hair show is on the 9thmay. at the esplanade.. woohoo. :) i cant do an outrageous thing cos my cousin will be doing it for me. and if its toooo funky, my mom will not be happy. and his mom will scold him.

went to town after that with melvin kor kor (my cousin), denise and kelvyn.. saw down at bk's and denise left to meet her mom. and err, edwin and lina came.. all my cousin's friends.. and they're damn nice.. lol. and i took my cousin's cigs cos i ran outta it. bahh. my cousin and i were like bitching about everyone.. and can u imagine, he actually had a drink with my bro david before.. my bro bought him a drink. wahlaooo. what about me?! i cant imagine drinking with david. let alone smoking with him.. i was telling melvin kor kor, "if i ever smoke with david kor kor, i think i smoke one puff.. he slap me one time".. and it turns out that, lina is my sister's friend.. what a small small world. and edwin knows my brother's clique of friends... small small world. so we went to nike bird and there was this tai tai that was holding the queue big time la.. so lina and i were like bitching about her big time.. lol. and kelvyn was like, even worst. so mean. saying the treadmill will break and burn..

they sent me to the bus stop before they left... which was damn nice of them. reminded me of times i used to hang out with cain, jesse, amy and bev. older people who makes sure im okay.

came home and saw a christian dior paper bag on my table.. my sis bought me the christian dior's parfum. j'adore. not very nice eh. eeeck. but since she's so nice, i will be even nicer and use it!

natasha wong ling. kyra wong lee ann. i love both.

so last night after my last blog entry, i went to check my mail and came upon this mail that my sis sent to me last month. but ive yet to read it cos it was some devotional thing.. but something in me just felt like reading it last night. and it was so amazing. it was this whole thing on being judgemental and all.. which was all good and all. god is so amazing i swear.

i want a nokia 7200.

pros.
its pretty.
it has color. (compared to my stupid 6510. agh. 7210 is far away in states.)
it has a camera.
its pretty.
i can flipppp.

cons.
its too bulky. (which means i cant use some of my bags if i buy that phone cos then the bulge will show.)
it isnt tri-band!!
its bulky...

okay..... so i watched the nkf show. ya it was quite sad la. but i still dont see why the people have to do stunts and all, just to get singaporeans to donate. and why are there even prizes and all that crap discount coupons? doesnt that mean we give with a purpose of wanting something materialistc (read, discounts yadayada) and not give purely for the sake of giving and helping those poor kidney patients?

is this where the world is at now, giving.. for the sake of wanting something in return. being all materialistic and all. whatever happened to dignity, humanity and guilt? well, im in no position to be all judgemental over here cos i dont think im of much good example. but owell... whatever.

my hair is full of wax and its all evelyn's fault!!! (hair wax btw.) and thanks for the green undies from bangkok. now i have all seven colors.. monday - sunday. how interesting. hehh.

went to holland village with evelyn after service and slacked for like 5 hours? yuppps. jokessss.

im sorry but i dont really support the nkf.

in the mirror was not bad.. at least its not one of those horror movies with no storyline at all.

beach road for dinner with wai, cat, azhar, jacob, huang and christopher.. went to the army market. the people there are damn irritating. but they only make up 20% if you want to compare them to the people in bali.

oh yes jacob told me this.. and im still thinking about it.

yadayadayadaaaa....geylang.....hotel......blahblah.
3 men goes into hotel 81, was told that a room would cost 30bucks a night.
so the 3 men each came up with 10bucks.. which makes it 30 bucks in total right?
and then the people at the reception desk realised that they've actually *gasp* overcharged them..... by 5bucks. it was supposed to be only 25 bucks cos its a weekday night. (outta point)
anywayyy. so the people at the desk sent the bellboy up to the room to return the three men the 5bucks they were overcharged for.
and the bellboy was thinking.. '5bucks would be hard to divide within the 3 men.' so that naughty boy pocketed 2bucks . went to the room... and gave each of the men their 1buck refund.

and so it all boils down to.... each guy paid 9bucks right? if they paid 10bucks and got 1buck back? so... 9x3=27. 30-27=3. but the bellboy only pocketed 2bucks. so....... where is the 1buck??

just got home.. clubbing.. uh huh. rivervally and town before that.

foul mood. sorry everyone.

met jen and crystal in town after work. it was such a wonder that they called me out. owells. yakun's for my french toast and half boiled eggs.

walked around and talked.. no actually i didnt talk much. didnt really feel like talking today. and cine has became qoo heaven? what the hell? damn obiang la. and i saw the most disgusting ah-qua guy ever. no, im not against gays. as in i like gay men. no. i love gay men.. everyone knows that.. but if you wanna be gay, carry yourself nicely. like stop being so whiney and wear such ugly clothes larh?! okok. im being judgemental all over again.

well, ive got ten percent off tickets for SHANTY : FOLLOW THAT DREAM. its a singapore production. venue, jubilee hall. wednesdays to sundays. eight pm. from 16th april to 1 may. please call me if you want tickets.

i saw emily, andrea and susan at the bus stop today. no, literally bus. yupp. on my way home.. susan looks all funkyyy and cool. and her gucci bag is like to-die-for. goddamnnice.

clubbing tomorrow night? hrrms. see how. cos it'll mean smoking more, and spending more money. which is bad bad bad. and i wonder if supper with evelyn after her dance is still on.. hrrms. i miss her!!!

im at work now. bosses are out.. yipeeee. :) all good and merry.

i was so stupid this morning i swear. i woke up at TWO AM in the morning.. thought it was SIX AM so i went to get ready, shower and all.. and when i came outta the shower, i realised that its only TWO THIRTY...... so i was like.. *whatthefuck?. such a fool. such a fool.

im damn sleepy... slept at twelve last night. i should be sleeping at eight everyday cos i need about ten hours of sleep. damn. met john this morning and i was damn late. i made him miss 3 buses... in a span of 5 minutes.. haha.

HOW COULD I FORGET TO BLOG ABOUT THIS......

there was a freaking blackout last night. and i went to sleep with my fan in hand. i fell asleep fanning myself. it was so fucking hot i swear.. wahlao.

and laurence just had to lie to me this morning that it was a supposed terrorist attack. how freaky. he just came online and msged me. haha.

okay. im sorry. very sorry. but all i can say is, im trying. give me time. and trust.

the people at work treat me like a small young little girl. i like. i like.

work has been very mundane. but the money is a-okay. so im not really complaining. mmmhmm.

today's my maid's birthday.. so we got her a cake.. and all. remind me to get her a gift once i get my paycheque..

my maid is leaving in august.. shes gonna go back to the phillippines (spell?) to study.. and learn how to drive. so as she said, she'll prolly stay on there and continue with her PUB business.. its quite sad eh. seen her for almost two years already. and she was the nicest maid we had so far.. and she has a tattoo!! haha. outta point.

today, i became a debt collector.... so i called different companies and asked them to pay up. how dumb... and i got scolded twice.. wahlao. bloody energizer and honghuat.

ive been eating too much.
sitting down too often.
im going to be even more overweight. save me!!!

apparently danny hasnt replied my sister's emails.. but he replies my mails! so does that mean that he loves me more? lol. im full of crap. anywayyy. he sms-ed me from ny at seventhirty today to tell me that he misses all of us. how sweeeet.

i think i should stop leaving in dreams.
reality check daphne. things wont go your way.... no matter how much you whine.

my sis joined some entertainment company. shes gonna be doing hosting and stuff like that. i think.. things arent really confirmed yet.. but its good la. since she has always liked these kinda stuff and i think its something she has always wanted to do? but she went to quit modelling and joined the airlines.. its either hosting.. or shes gonna be a dj. jokes. cant imagine.

wells. bed time!

my sis and tash were praying together last night..
and it went something like this..

mommy, is jesus an indian.... or a chinese..... or a malay?
im not sure tash.. why dont you pray to God?
okay.. never mind mommy. -runs in her room.. *closes her eyes and prays quite loudly...- dear God, can you please tell me whether jesus is an indian, chinese or malay? in jesus's name i pray.. amen.
-walks into my sister's room-
mommy, God told me that jesus is a chinese.

what an angel. =) haha.

the new paper today says,

lady, if your index finger is shorter than your ringfinger, you are likely to be into casual sex.

okay.. now everyone stop reading, look at your hands..

evelyn picked me up this morning.. and she was outrightly bitching about the cab driver. literally behind his back.

i was forced to go to subway for lunch.. grrr.

eve and i wanted to do our manicures.. but had to wait till like two thirty.. so we gave up the idea.. sheesh. met cain!! finally after like weeeeks! and im gonna get this pair of mambo jeans.. its damn nice. and i can get it for only seventy bucks. but its damn low la. so maybe i'll drop the idea.

watched passion with vincent, joseph, rachel, mark and kairen. it wasnt as great as i thought it would be. gospel of john was wayyyy better. all i did throughout the entire movie was cover my eyes with my top.

i heard the funniest rumour in the car. haha. jokes.
agh, work tomorrow.. im SO dreading it.

maybe, i ask for too much sometimes.
maybe im just being paranoid.
maybe im just being spoilt.
maybe, maybe its you. not me?

town. bukit timah..

and ive still not eaten my prata yet!! :((

evelyn and i miss each other so much we call each other at the same time.

perhaps i react the way i do to things because i had a sheltered childhood.
everything i wanted, i had. (well, maybe not all.. i wanted to go to PAP because all my neighbours were in PAP.. so they all wore that blue thing.. and there i was with my pink and grey faith methodist uni.) i never used like coloring unless the color pencils are from the gap. i never liked to wear dresses unless they're from gap or guess. i never like to wear clothes that werent from overseas cos i thought why wear something people on the streets can own? i think my sis, bro and my mom spoilt me too much when i was a child. oh yes not forgetting that rich indo ex boyfriend of my sister. haha.

maybe its the reason why i react to situations this way now. because things dont go my way at all. things are not all easy cheesy.

its time i grow up huh.

please dont let me be another yanti who called danny,crying at 3am just cos she found out that jerald is back and he didnt call her. please dont let me be another gin who does the straw thing.

please dont let me be me.
please dont let me be you.
please dont.. just dont.

i dont want to know the truth.
yet another part of me yearns to know the truth.. and just tell myself.. see, daph.. you did it again stupid girl.

i think if there's this award for most paranoid girl in year 2004, i win hands down.

im actually very sick and tired of everything. seriously. i mean on one hand, you say all those stuff. on the other, your actions are putting me off totally. big time. once again, please call me a fool. some things never change huh. and please dont, dont ever let me know that you've been the one. because that would put me down totally. it was hard to trust again. but i did. so dont abuse the trust ive put in you.

so its a saturday and i dont think im going out.. mmhmm. uh huh.

i dont like the things that are happening around me.
dont like. dont like. dont like. never liked it. will never like it. dont like. dont like. dont like. aghhh.

bukit timah, breko's, wala's, rosnah's.

been craving for prata for weeks but didnt eat it just now cos rosnah's just doesnt appeal.

i just found out that now, my sis hangs out in hollandvee after the girls get to bed. i'd better be careful.. hrrms.

i just found out that my sister and my brother in law went to bangkok 2 weekends ago with lisa ang and ivan rantung.. ehhhs? and apparently my mom says they meet up for movies, coffees and all recently. happening. didnt realise my sister had a social life. ha.

oh this reminds me, yesterday i was wearing my ILOVENY shirt. tash and i both have the same shirt. danny gave it to us. so it went something like that..
tash. "how come you're wearing my shirt?"
me. "cos your shirt got enlarged.. so i took it."
tash. "then i cannot wear already?"
me. "no im sorry baby."
tash. "-points to her pink tee.- you want this shirt when i enlarge it?"
me. "okies!"

silly goat of mine.

went for the 9am service with eve. had lunch.. err breakfast? whatever.. and accompanied her to town.. i saw the nokia7200.. its not as nice as i thought it would be.. so im having second thoughts of getting it.

i saw two nice pairs of heels in HEATWAVE. haha. evelyn and i were rolling our eyes when we went into the shop.. but well. saw 2 nice pairs.. but i dun really wear heels already.. shall see larhs. anyway its so godammit cheap.

everyone i know has watched passion of christ. how unfair and evil right.

sometimes the truth hurts. but can you please tell me the truth. cos i dont want this misunderstanding between us to go on any longer. you are a very very special friend to me and i dont like the fact that we are having bitter quarrels just because of some fucked up shit. words, lies.. the works. im very sorry ive been very direct and crude to you. but please try to see things from my point of view. im not having things easy cheesy you know? and i know its hard for you on your part too. different sides, different things..

thou the truth is hard to handle, please dont ever let me find out that its you.

know for a fact though we do not or rarely show it - that we do LOVE
you, daph! from my sis.. damn sweet. aggggh.

holland, cj.. denise.. and i. talking about childhood days, and spooky stories... funny how we actually went from one to another cos there's no connection? finally i saw humans after 4 days of work!!

i wanna watch passion of christ!!! anyone anyone?

three days in a row, eight hours and forty five minutes everyday. all i did was fold the paper, insert into the envelope. SO FUN RIGHT? and the result? PAPER CUTS. *grumble.

this afternoon, i heard naughty girl by beyonce and i started tearing. its damn dumb. owell.

i saw this guy.. that looks exactly like my bro. exactly..... except this guy is thinner, and he was wearing some awful looking clothes, with awful looking shoes, with an awful looking bag. but main point, he looked like my bro.

i dont like to cry.
i dont like crying.

i need a fag.
i need to scream.
i need to cry. okay. im crying. but thats outta point.
i need to talk to someone. now. yes i am. but thats outta point too.

every other day, i must cry and whine. then i'll feel much better.
no im talking crap. ignore me. just let me whine.

i miss jessssyy baby! and yes, nakata's backside anytime.

all i do is sit. and sometimes sleep.
in the morning, i sit on the bus, and sleep.
when i get to work, i sit.
when im having my lunch, i sit.
after work, i sit on the bus, and sleep.
when i come home, i sit. and watch the tv.
and then i sleep.

im overweightttttt. bah.

if i see another envelope i'll scream. from eight this morning till five thirty, all i did was fold invoices and put them into envelopes. for nine and a half freaking hours, can you imagine? didnt help that on my way home, i was trying to sleep on the bus. but this super ego guy was sitting next to me, calling different girls. flirting with them asking them to be his girlfriend.. lying to them that he's in camp.. telling them he misses them, and hangs up on each of them saying in mandarin, "ive got something to do.. officer calling.. call u later okay?" what an ass right? and he was like fat, and using some OUTDOOR bag. small. and he carries it really high. and he's 21. what the fuck right? or rather, he lied to many girls his age la. got 17, 18, 20, 21... men. TSKK. so hell yar, instead of sleeping, i spent the entire time rolling my eyes.

so is this what you really think of me? you think all i do is whine to you every few weeks and apologise after? yes we've went through ups and downs. but something tells me that this time, we dont see each other's point anymore and we prolly wont. we've drifted so far apart. i dont know what else to say. all i can say is, i do miss the friendship alot. and no, there wont be anymore sorrys since sorrys from me prolly seem like lies to you.

i filed fifteen stacks of fucking documents today. each higher than my three inch wedge heels.

came straight home after work today cos no one wanted to go all the way to jurong point to meet me after my first day of work. how fantastic.

everyone has watched passion of the christ already. agh. what about talks to watch it on sunday? all crap.

my maid is pissing me off big time. she comes into the room, and doesnt knock. she just barges in. like that. banggg. then if i lock it, she will knock on the door till i open it. irritating.

im being horribly paranoid now. but its not me. its everyone. right.

ive never felt so tired in weeks. i just got home..

was late for service today. damn tired.. went to crystal jade at holland after church with eve, hazel and sammy. AND WE ORDERED EIGHTEEN DISHES. i tell you, the aunties there were like.. "heng duo le. hai yao jiao?" meaning alot eh, still want to order? haha. damn funny. and the bill came up to one hundred and eighty bucks but sammy didnt want to let us pay at all.. so...... thanks for lunch. and the cab ride to heeren!

went over to get new shoes!! yay. got myself a pair of heels this time around since i've not worn heels for such a long time and im feelin short!! owell. met amy and allll the mambo people. and met ian in blackjack. walked around many places with the PINK my melody umbrella. how cool. ran in the rain with it too. and i saw this guy slip infront of me. danggg.

went to the hair show at toni&guy's. in robinson's road.. kinda nice la. but basically we just sat there reading mags.

came home, put my things down and went downstairs to meet john and laurence. played pool.. okay, not me. them. and i took a cab home from bukit panjang plaza back home.. or rather i hitched a ride from john's cab. just opposite the road. the uncle was very amused.

veryyy tired. starting work tomorrow.
photocopy.
scan.
paint my nails.
filing. (nails, and paper.)

just got home.. met denise in holland. and then ian came down during half time of the game.. and then laurence came.. and left after afew games of daidee..

and then we met adrian, mark and vincent.. went down to wine bar. sat down and told each other religion jokes? lol. andddd, i had to see my cousin there. but he's cool about it. told me he wont tell his mom, or my mom. which is gooood. haha. and he was like "what are u drinking?" and i said something like, "oh coke.." which was obviously a joke and he knew. then he took out his cigs and said, "you smoke right? dont bluff me.. never mind la. smoke. i wont tell. since we're both so jia-lat." haha. so i finalllllly got to smoke with my cousin. which is all merry cos i remember him telling me when i was in sec3 that if i smoked, he will tell everyonee! and he was telling denise.. "last time i used to carry her when she was a baby, piggy backed her when she was older.. now? we're smoking together." haha.

just read danny's mail. made me cry. as usual.. haiyars.

ITS A FUCKING SATURDAY AND EVERYONE IS IN A IDONTWANNAGOTOTOWN MOOD.

will someone please tell me why gucci.com doesnt have my dream tote bag? ive seen it at the boutique. its a whooping S$1050 the last time i saw it.

chinablack with jen and crystal?
mahjong at denise's place?
induz3 with wai, cat, ian and azhar?

but all i wanna do is eat prata!!!

things are looking gooood. my sis bought me yet another new fragrance. issey, the red and round one? so its kinda dumb cos now i have it in the lighter red, and the dark red. difference being the scent of the darker red one is well stronger, duh?! i still want my gucci rush. and im loving my chanel no. 5.. but gotta watch how much i use of that cos im running outta it!

and im meeting jessy babyyy tomorrow!!! just talked to her on msn. lets hope we really keep to meeting up tomorrow. we wanted to meet NOW in holland but we were both feeling damn lazy. so that aside, we're meeting tomorrow! its time for some major bitching, plus catching up. yayy. :) work at mambo would not be the same without her. how we would ROLL OUR EYES while judging people. haha. like as though we're all that, which we arent. the many late night movies, suppers and holland village sessions.

im hungry. anyone wanna meet me at bkt png now?

kor & i had a chat about you & he's worried about what you are doing outside - you still seem gullible & naive in our eyes still.

part of an email my sis sent to me. everyone thinks im gullible and naive. everyone says im gullible and naive. aghhh.

im feeling just a little better. thanks to those who had to endure me online last night. had a damn nice dream last night. i dreamt that my wholeee family, meaning my parents, two bros, sis, bro in law and my two lovely nieces.. were at this carnival TOGETHER. which is something that we've not done... doing things as a family. the last time i remember was dinner at bkt timah. 22nd december.. sigh. that was the last dinner we had as a family before danny left on christmas.

on another note, i brought tasha down for a walk (as john and jacob would say, you think shes a dog???) at bukit panjang plaza last night and its damn cool now. *rolls eyes. i mean like there's this damn nice shop that does manicure. but im not sure how good they are.. and there's this shop that sells damn pretty bras. and two new handphone shops. of which i must mention, 7200 is out, $888 without line. should i, should i not? oh yes and tash was such an angel. when we were walking to the plaza, she said something like "you've not brought me out for a long time.. thank you for bringing me down.. i love you." so sweeeeet right. this coming from a 4 year old girl. makes me wanna pamper her and buy her more stuff.

okay. im gonna try not to talk to my mom today.

macs with john, jacob and laurence plus 3 sticks of cigs was what i needed to get my mind off things. thank goodness they called, otherwise i would still be left crying at home. (not that i went there crying..) also with jacob's funny antics, john's dragon and laurence's talking about army. thanks sgt for the cigs.

i decide to stay at home today and be a good girl. and what do i get? my mom quarreling with me and telling me she hates me. okay. how fantastic.

now im left crying infront of the fucking computer because i have no idea who to call, no idea who to meet.

i just sent danny a fucking vulgar email. but then again, reality check. does he actually care? i dont think so.

times like this i actually pray for guts to kill myself. and then i realised, i will never have the courage to kill myself.

so will you please kill me? for me?

i just realised something,

i need a hair cut. badly. i was actually thinking of keeping my hair till 9thMay. the hair show. but by then. it'll prolly look like shit. like it already does now.

OH MY GOODNESS, I CANT BELIEVE I JUST GOT TRICKED. YOU ALL VERY MEAN!!!!!!!!!! CJ AND DENISE.... THUMBS UP!

been away. recap.

monday

met beks for lunch in fareast.. talked yadayada.. went to lasalle to get some cpf form thingy. went to plazasingapura and we took some reallllly funny neos. dont ask which machine. or wait, should it be ride? =P

rushed home to pack my stuff and went to meet edric. took the train allllll the way to pasir ris and had our dinner before we went to aloha loyang.. its reallllly huge and nice. 4 bedrooms!!

chin shin drove jason, edric, jimmy and i out illegally. with our rented toyota - with a very unlucky carplate number. 7774C. and when we were driving back, we saw godfrey standing outside the chalet looking damn worried. turned out that wilson was playing with the motocycle and he fell. so off we went to drive him to changi general hospital.. damn scary. his collarbone broke. literally broke.

went back to the chalet, sat around.. bitched in the room.. or rather the girls dorm. we finally after many cigs and lots of bitching.... felt sleepy at 5ish and off we went to sleep.

tuesday

woke up at 7 cos they were going to send jason to ngeeann.. and i needed to go home to get some forms for the lasalle application.. lied down at the back of the car on my way back. got some sleep... went back to the chalet around 9? and i went to sleep till 130? and when i woke up, i was playing some car thingy on the xbox. and i won!!!!

we wanted cheap food. so chin shin, jason, cj, denise and i drove to tp for lunch... and off we went to lasalle and to return the car. no more car. boohoo.

after lasalle, went over to denise's house.. and we wanted cheap food. so off we went to commonwealth's hawker centre. and took the train alllllllllll the way to pasir ris. and we were feeling bored. so together armed with cigs, we walked from pasir ris central alllllllllllll the way to aloha loyang. which was deeeep inside. kinda scary.

went back in time to watch missing. the new show. damn sad. and incredible tales was damn scary last night. okay. its scary to me every week. whatever..

and we played mahjong. or rather i learnt how to play... -nods- damn fun. and we were drinking. so as usual, i kept needing to go to the washroom to pee. and the game kept stopping because of me..

slept around 3ish? and the room was veryyyy cold i almost died. okay, im lying..

wednesday

woke up at 930? only to find a change in sleeping positions. damn funny. anywayy. went to downtown east for lunch. and pool. but i didnt play cos the table sucked.

went down to town and we were alllll sleeping on the train.. denise did her hair thingy, and i went over to cine to meet aj and colin bestfren!

afterwhich was home cos my bro called me and scolded me for some stupid reason.

anyway coming home to realise that my sister lent me 3 of her prada bags and quite alot of tops (workkkK!) is good. haha. yayyy. more bags. sad thing is, work starts on monday. BOOOHOOOO.